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03:07 pm
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And the insanity continues
So it's been an awesome week. Band Banquet was tons of fun, check out the pictures on my picture site: http://community.webshots.com/user/taby13
I <3 my drumline kids. We had good times just being stupid and dancing. Michelle's dress broke...jsut the strap, but it was still stinkin funny.
Monday was the last day of classes, so we did SLC--I ran & did crunches while they played basketball, as usual. Then girly movie night. Love Actually makes me happy. Sometimes it makes me cry, and i often feel like I'm going to end up as the guys with the signs, but it still makes me happy.
Tuesday was awesome. It was Hasan & Joel's big "Christmas Party" aka we dont have class tomorrow, so lets get drunk. I didnt drink, but I had a great time. I met some of the other percussion kids not on drumline, and hung out with some of my best friends here. We all danced for awhile, and I was there til pretty much the end, when everyone was trashed enough to start making out with everyone else. Bobby was puking in the bathroom, and Robert, Trent(who is engaged), some kid named Randy and I were the only ones in the living room not making out. So we decided to leave. But overall, it was good times. Dancing was mega amounts of fun, especially since i hadn't really danced like that and actually with guys in awhile. Band banquet was a different setting. I enjoy laughing at the drunk kids. When they're not throwing up. I felt bad for Bobby. oh well.
Ok, now to study Spanish. I need a C on the final to get a C in general. I have all A's besides this class. Gah. No me gusta. Gosh it's freaking me out.
Current Mood:  anxious
Current Music: None--we're on 24 hour quiet time in the dorms
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10:16 pm
[Link] | Ok, so now that i have generally no classes anymore, I find myself on here more.
Today a friend asked me to the band banquet. He's engaged. Weird. It's not like a serious date or anything, but its odd anyhow. Hmmm...could be interesting. At least I'm not attracted to him. That would make things more awkward.
So i finally get actually asked to something by a boy, and hes engaged. Irony. Oh well. The banquet will be fun no matter what, I'm hoping. And its tomorrow. Woot woot.
Tonight was the Choral Christmas Concert. It rocked. And i am totally ready for christmas to be here. And finals to be over!
Current Mood:  excited
Current Music: Christmas!!
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09:29 pm
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CHRISTMAS
It is so Christmas on campus. Tonight was our tree lighting ceremony. Every year Baylor gets a big tree (which happens to look more bushlike) and puts in our Quadrangle and has a big ceremony on the night they light it up. There was a concert with Monk and Neagle and other bands, hay rides drawn by gorgeous horses, food, pictures with santa, christmas ball decorating, letters to santa, and a live nativity with CAMELS!! I got to pet a camel. Theyre really poufy. I could stick my fingers all the way in its fur and not hit skin. It was so cool. i decided i like camels.
Now im all kinds of Christmas-y. woohoo.
And I feel like dancing. Good thing i get to on Saturday. And maybe again before i come home. Hasan is claiming he's going to have a BIG party for christmas. They're gunna try to beat the record of like 125 people at the apartment. Could be fun. Classes are basically done besides finals. Time to have fun for a bit. Woot woot.
Current Mood:  flirty
Current Music: La vie boheme
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01:20 pm
[Link] | Life has a funny way of making you feel like crap when you need to be at your best, doesnt it?
I need to study, not feel like im going to puke.
Current Mood:  sick
Current Music: Thunderstorm outside
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06:09 pm
[Link] | Feeling crazy weird.
Reason 1-- A pastor of a church near here died this morning. Its a huge church where David Crowder Band does worship when they arent on tour. The pastor was doing a baptism and his mic fell in the water and electrocuted him and the girl being baptized. He died, and she is in the hospital. But its really weird and has made this day so bizarre, on top of other stuff. The church saw their pastor die. How scary is that? I am really creeped out by it. I dont go to that church, so I'm not terribly upset but it still shakes me up.
Reason 2-- Other stuff. I dont even know. I am not feeling very good today cuz of marching all weekend. And last night we were out really late doing random stuff and talking about a lot of serious things, and it really made me think about life and guys and my being stupid. I was so trying not to be stupidly girly any more. ugh.
Reason 3-- Saw 2 sucks.
Reason 4-- Two tests on tuesday that i have a complete inability to study for today.
The End
Current Mood:  drained
Current Music: People in the hall
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08:11 pm
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What is this?
So everyone keeps telling me i shouldn't eb so attached to home. It's just high school life, I'm in college now. What the heck is that supposed to mean? So now that I've left Concord and Delaware, my friends there no longer exist or care? I shouldn't care about and miss them? I shouldn't want to go visit and go to things like homecoming? I'm sorry, but that is NOT how i work. People should mind their own business if they're just going to tell me im doing it wrong, ok? Gosh.
By the way, to all of you i talked to this weekend, thank you, you made it bareable. And exactly 4 weeks til im home!! Woot woot. Yea for Thanksgiving.
Holidays make me smile. Tonight little kids came trick or treating through our dorm. They were so cute. Gosh i want a baby. But first i need to find a boy. Then the whole get married thing. The finding a boy is the more difficult part.
Current Mood:  I don't even know
Current Music: Somebody to love- Queen
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02:21 am
[Link] | I want to be home.
Current Mood:  sad
Current Music: Only Hope- switchfoot
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09:05 pm
[Link] | So I'm stuck in Waco anyhow...my ride's car broke. Poo. So I'm stealing the Itunes thingy and doing it cuz im bored and who wants to do homework the first night of break?
How many total songs?
902 songs...i suck at uploading CDs...i think i only have like 1/4 of my CDs on there...
Sort by song title - first and last?
(I've had)The Time of my Life~ Dirty Dancing
Zephyr Song~ Red Hot Chili Peppers
Sort by time - first and last?
Tune Up #3~ Rent
In Your hands~ Sonicflood
Sort by Album - first and last?
A Man can change his Stars
All my unalbumed songs from Katie Vollmer mixes
Top 25 played songs? (most played song at number one)
I leave my Itunes on shuffle 24/7 and rarely switch what its playing, so this is somewhat random...and it seems to have a fondness for All American Rejects, which i dont quite understand...shouldnt it be better at shuffling?
1. Happy Endings~ All American Rejects
2. You've Got so Far to Go~ Alkaline Trio
3. Swing Swing~ All American Rejects
4. Don't Worry Baby~ The Beach Boys
5. Gone, Gone, Gone~ Everly Brothers
6. Spit on a Stranger~ Nickel Creek
7. What You Own~ Rent
8. Extraordinary Girl~ Green Day
9. Closing Time~ Semisonic
10.Every Dream~ Mourning September
11.The Last Song~ All American Rejects
12.why Worry~ All American Rejects
13.She's a Rebel~ Green Day
14.The Phantom of the Opera~ duh...
15. Save Tonight~ Eagle Eye Cherry
16.I Should Tell You~ Rent
17.Defying Gravity~ Wicked
18.Too Far Gone~ All American Rejects
19.The Longest Time~ Billy Joel
20.Boulevard of Broken Dreams~ Green Day
21.Are We the Waiting~ Green Day
22.Goodbye Love~ Rent
23.Emma~Alkaline Trio
24.My Boyfriends Back~ American Dreams
25.Whip it~ Devo
Top 20 recently played songs? (most played song at number one)
Yet again, crazy randomness...
1. Savior~ Skillet
2. Are We the Waiting~ Green Day
3. Like a Child~ Jars of Clay
4. View from Heaven~ Yellowcard
5. (I've had) The time of my Life~ Dirty Dancing
6. Why Have You Brought Me Here? ~ Phantom
7. Nobody Else~ Los Lonely Boys
8. Power of Love~ Huey Lewis and the News
9. Worlds Apart~ Jars of Clay
10.Bustopher Jones~ Cats
11.The River of Dreams~ Billy Joel
12.Seven Nation Army~ The White Stripes
13.Greased Lightning~ John Travolta
14.Save Tonight~ Eagle Eye Cherry
15.Accidental Killers~ Ethan Durelle
16.Hey!Baby~ Dirty Dancing
17.More Than Useless~ Relient K
18.Banana Pancakes~ Jack Johnson
19.Our Finest Hour~ Philmore
20.Look Down~ Les Mis
Find 'sex', how many songs show up?
one
Find 'death', how many songs show up?
four
Find 'love', how many songs show up?
52
Find 'peace', how many songs show up?
3
Fine 'rain', how many songs show up?
8
Find 'sun'; how many songs show up?
3
So if anyone else gets broed enough to read that, enjoy my utter oddness...it gets better when you actually lok through my whole playlist. Fun times.
I'm still bored...and its only day one...
Current Mood:  bored
Current Music: Raspberry Beret ~ Prince
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01:24 pm
[Link] | rahr. I don't know whats going on this weekend cuz i dont have a car to drive myself up to Rockwall to visit the Gibbs. and i have class til 7 which sucks generally, but especially today. man. So now im grumpy and i really want to go see them, but its so much of a hassel and no one can take me conviently. And i hate making people go out fo their way. Maybe im better off chillin in Waco by myself.
I really wanna come home. Everyone else gets to, since it is fall break. And i could be there for homecoming. gah. Stupid money. i have class in 20 minutes and i need to print my paper. im out.
Current Mood:  frustrated
Current Music: billy joel, randomly...
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12:27 pm
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Haunted houses and the middle of nowhere...
Last night was crazy fun.
1) Went to one of the girl's on drumline's Dad's RV for dinner. We were gunna play volleyball and stuff too, but it got dark too fast. On the way Adam almost killed Michelle and I and himself when the feeder randomly made a like 90 degree turn that was not lit at all. Scary. But he totally handled it well. But we had hot dogs and chili and such, and it was good times. I picked up a family friend of theirs. Not on purpose, but it was kinda funny and flattering cuz he obviously liked me. Hes a freshman here and a vocal ed major. So we left and he came with us instead of staying with his brother (who's a junior) and his friend.
2) Went to the Battle of the Bands. Saw a few of the drumline guys, and figured out one of them was drumming for one of the bands. It was cool. Mark(the guy who liked me) went to his dom for a few minutes, then came back. When he was leaving, he actually like bumped my shoudler and winked at me. Who winks? weird. And he was crazy boring at times, so i decided this was going to go nowhere, even though he kept randomly touching me and obviously was trying to flirt. It was funny. Joel and Hasan invited us over after, but they had already been drinking, and we wanted to do some other stuff first.
3)Went to a haunted house. Michelle and i freaked out at every person. I dont do well with things popping out at me. but i was hanging onto Adam and Robert basically the whole time. Poor Mark was alone, but i didnt wanna like lead him on, and hello, id only known him for like 3 hours. So grabbing his arm would be weird. He left after we got back to campus cuz he wasnt all for possibly partying with us.
4)Went to some dancers party, which stunk. We spent a whole maybe 15 minutes there, then robert used adam michelle and i as an excuse to leave. We're the youngins and had to be in bed by 1, right? ugh.
5)Went to Joel and Hasan's. Ended up watching Ring Two while Hasan disappeared for awhile and Joel slept. Ha.
That was my crazy night. I miss our randomness. This is the most random we've been yet. DE kids totally beat out this. Ok, i need to shower NOW.
Current Mood:  cheerful
Current Music: Under the Bridge- Red Hot Chili Peppers
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09:40 pm
[Link] | Next year, I'm going to apartment living. Crazy. Its still owned by Baylor, but me, Michelle, Kelli and one other girl will be living together. Fourth girl to be determined...if anyone wants to come out here, we could pull some strings...haha. But i am totally excited about it...a real fridge and stove, wireless internet instead of ResNet, cable TV, a real living room and dining room. Gosh, excitement. Now we can be the cool hang out. At least for the non drinking drummers, and those that just love us that much. Its gunna be awesome. Heres the site for the layout and junk if anyone is interested. I feel old, moving in a real apartment. Gosh.
http://www.baylor.edu/cll/index.php?id=1107
And why on Earth is our band obsessed with Saints March..they played it at least 10 times at the volleyball game.
Current Mood:  hes just fun lookin...
Current Music: Saints March
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01:27 am
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Third wheel...again
How come i usually feel like such a third wheel? Like tongiht i was out with two of my friends, and he likes her, but she doesnt like him. But he thinks she does and she is too nice to say otherwise...until after tonight, that is. He had his arm around her quite alot, and she looked crazy uncomfortable, but didnt want to make things really awkward, so wouldnt say anything.
But i still felt awkwardly out of it, and lonely. Im sick of feeling lonely again. I miss feeling unlonely. Not that it was all that long, but i still kinda got used to it. And now that im back out of it, i remember why i liked it so much. I know Greg and I dont belong together right now, and that it wont work like this, but i miss the whole having a relationship thing. I guess i just want someone to like me again. I miss feeling wanted.
And i feel like im a complainer, cuz one of the guys on the line, Hasan, told Robert that he feels bad cause i always put myself down. I don't mean to, but i feel so inadaquate when all the guys like my best friend here, or all the pretty girls. I am not like them. Im not preppy, im used to hanging out with 'the weird kids' as we are well deemed in the world of Hollister. This is a stinking rich school, so kids like us dont exist. Skaters are rare to be seen, and a kid in black pants with chains? Why, he must be a freak! Its crazy. Tonight one of the guys im not really friends with asked why i hung out with kids like that in high school. And it made me wonder why people are so superficial. To him i hung out with people like that cause i couldnt find better. Well, hes right. Who could be better than the friends i have? Noone.
But thats totally a tangent on the Hasan comment. I just feel like they view me as a complainer now, at least about myself, and im going to really try to work on that. Or at least i think he thinks i have no self confidence. Which i dont believe to be true. I dislike my body to a certain extent. But that in a way goes back to the original comment on feeling alone. I feel that boys dont like me because of my body. I am no "yellow", as our drummers like to call hot girls. And i never will be. I feel overlooked by lack of beauty. Which will make a certain dislike of body develop for any girl.
I know im better than all this, but yaknow what? I dont think any girl can get past all this all the time. Right now is my time to struggle, but i'll make it through okay. I do love being me, i could just stand to lose some tummy flab. haha. Well, now this is the longest entry ive made in quite awhile, so im done. Good night
Current Mood: lonely
Current Music: Speak- Nickel Ceek
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06:56 pm
[Link] | Even better...instead of going up to 70's, today dropped to low 50s. Its funny to see everyone march in hats and hoodies instead of no shirts.
Current Mood:  just chilly, really
Current Music: whatever Maggie is playing
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09:15 pm
[Link] | the weather is stinking pyscho here! Yesterday was in the high 90s. Today is very low 60s. What the heck? And tomorrow will be high 70s, and saturday 80s. Texas has some major problems.
Current Mood:  confused
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02:29 am
[Link] | I really ought to sleep. but instead im on here at 2:30 in the morning when i have a 9 AM class. Life is good. I am enjoying every thing, except spanish, which i hate with a mad passion. It took me awhile to realize just how preppy a college i am truly at, but i definately am. And id liek to rush, but cant afford it, cuz Panhellenic is crazy expensive. And i cant hink enough to write any more. Love you guys.
Current Mood:  content
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09:39 pm
[Link] | So its been awhile. And theres nothing really to say. I think im getting better at this whole marching band thing. Today i actually connected music and marching pretty well. Amazing. But i guess thats a really good thing, considering i have a game tomorrow. At A&M. It will be on TV, so watch and look for me in the band. Im one of the big flashy cymbals. :D
AND i feel healthy. Craziness. I did 500 crunches and ran just over half a mile. I slacked on the running, im usually better at it. But it was awesome to do all those crunches. I also really like watching our drumline basketball games. Which is what i do while crunching.
So yeah, thats about it for now, cuz im lazy and ought to be going to sleep, considering i need to get up around 5 am. gosh.
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Breakfast at Tiffany's
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09:56 pm
[Link] | As an update to yall before i head out to Fort Worth, Rita moved, and is no longer predicted to hit here much at all. So i shall be just fine any way about it. I love you guys!
Current Mood:  loved
Current Music: Time of your Life(Good Riddance)
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09:04 am
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I hate Hurricanes more...
We are being unofficially evacuated. For all you who frantically IMed me, I'll be fine, i promise. They are expecting tornadoes to spawn off the hurricane and cause the damage up here. They are also expecting power outages and water outages, so thats why we're being told togo somewhere else. There is only enough emergency supplies for 25% of the campus, so 75% of us need to leave.
So I am leaving. MY friend Michelle is taking me home with her, and its going to be fun. I took a bunch of precautions here in the room in case we do get a tornado messing up North Russell. But everything will be just fine, and dont worry or freak out, I am dong quite enough of that for all of us.
Current Mood: worried
Current Music: Girls moving around my hall...
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08:20 am
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I hate Crickets...
So last night we went to see Brothers Grimm, which i must say I really liked. Maybe its cuz i grew up on their stories, maybe cuz Heath Ledger was so adorable, maybe cuz parts were just so weird. But i really really liked it.
But: The Texas crickets are insane and make me want to cry. We were waiting in line for tickets, and they were just hopping around and being annoying. THEN I feel something wiggling IN my pants! One went up my pant leg and was stuck at my knee cuz my pants were too tight for a cricket to fit any higher. So i freaked out. Screaming, jumping, the works, in front of the movie theater. I seriously almost cried.
Then: After the movie, we went to Common Grounds, the local coffee shop. It was going well for awhile. Then crickets began like attacking us. We had 3 Kamikaze crickets jump around us in a total of mabe 5 minutes. So we decided to leave. And I decided I hate crickets and they hate me.
Disclaimer: This hate of all things cricket-like does not extend to Cricket, Lynn's dog. Only the real things.
Current Mood: Grossed out by crickets...
Current Music: Working for the weekend- Loverboy
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09:56 pm
[Link] | So i really should be studying. So this will be short. I totally bombed my first Spanish quiz, so i HAVE to do well tomorrow to try and help my grade at least a little. But i did pass my logic test which was amazingly awesome. I got an 87, so a high B when i thought i completely bombed it. I still have NO idea why on earth I'm in that class.
My random consideration fo the week: I'm thinking next year I'd like to start Hebrew. So spanish for ministry next semester and start in on Hebrew 1 fall of sophomore year. Hmmm.
So yeah, band is still my favorite thing ever. And most of my friends are still just drumline, but thats okay. Maggie and I don't get along TOO well, but we make it work. She's just too darn cool for me, ya know? Allergies have been eating my face, but i got meds today that im hoping will help. And i need to find my cymbals a home until Monday when i can back in the drumroom. Crap. They are not sleeping with me, as they are currently living on my bed. Where the heck can they go? Gah. So that is my randomness.
Seriousness: for those of you i have not told and would/will yell at me for not telling you, Greg and I are no longer official. We still plan on talking and seeing each other when I'm home, but we can't see being married and what is the point of a difficult long distance relationship if it will just end anyhow? Besides, I have a ridiculously overactive guilt complex. I was feeling bad just studying with just me and a guy. Which is idiotic. Therefore it is better this way. I still miss him, and miss knowing we're officially together, but it's okay. We'll both make it, and knew this was coming.
So yes. I am off to estudiar para la examenes de espanol y scriptures. I miss you all tons, and wish i could come visit soon. But not until Thanksgiving. But then it will be awesome! I love you guys.
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Phantom of the Opera
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